I had this beautiful idea for a practice corner article this morning during a time that I could not get to my computer. I let the mind write and the words flowed! I felt the energy and the power of the words. It was REALLY good and felt magical. Then, many hours later, as I sat to write the article, SILENCE. Nothing. No words came. I couldn’t even remember the topic of the article.
And then as I watched conditioning attempt to torture me for all the ways I could have done it differently, I heard a loving voice say the words, “the recorder.” I often use the recorder as a way to let the thoughts flow when I’m prepping for a training or work event. The idea to record this morning did drop in, but what I listened to was, ‘Nah, I’ll remember. This is SO good, how could I forget!” And there it is, Life offering guidance and the habitual pattern of not listening to the support that Life is offering. Wow! That pattern happens everywhere. I get bamboozled and don’t get to receive the support that is being offered. Self-hate says the recorder, as a witness, could have held all of those beautiful words and now it is a loss. But the practitioner responds: No, because look at all I’m getting to see with this whole process.
That guidance is being offered constantly. Drop the conversation. Get out of the mind. Drop the story. Get here. Yes, that guidance is powerful. And, if I don’t respond to the guidance, I don’t receive the full benefit of the guidance. I live in a perpetual intellectual understanding of mentorship, guidance, practice, but I don’t get to receive the benefit of practicing. That feels really big -- that subtle difference between hearing, “get the recorder” and acting on what was heard and getting the recorder and recording and seeing what there is to see. In responding to the wisdom to record, I’m communicating to this person, the only one I can save, that you matter.