All I can say is wow! This is a real letting go moment. What happened to the article that I wrote a couple of days ago? Nowhere to be found! How could that happen? How could the document disappear? I sat down at the computer this afternoon to look over the piece I was writing for the Newsletter before sending it off, and I can’t find it.
So interesting to observe myself looking for it and noticing what is arising in the mind and body. Increased pulse and breathing. Disbelief that the document wasn’t saved. How did that happen? It is really fitting that it did. I’ve been so distracted lately and I’ve misplaced several items and feel like I’m in catch-up mode in many of my ongoing tasks and responsibilities. And the article was such a heartfelt look at some current practice elements that I couldn’t recreate it if I tried…or so it is believed. And why would I want to? I sat down one afternoon at the time I had scheduled to write and began writing. It all just dropped in and now it’s gone. And here I am.
I love this Practice. I can choose to suffer over the circumstances or just move on with a chuckle and gratitude for how perfect it all is. Lately, attention is all over the place. When it does land in awareness, it’s like a breath of fresh air….a refuge…. a coming home. I imagine that awareness is more expanded than conditioning would have me realize. Yes, and I see that certain elements of practice have fallen by the wayside leading to periods of lack of energy and listlessness. “What you practice is what you have.” Yes, indeed.
So, here we are. I’ve written another article, which happens to be due tomorrow. I’ve saved and, most important, recorded it. So grateful and full of energy! A smile on my face. Being engaged in the process of ending suffering is truly the best!